How would you describe your current life? Is it convenient, familiar and routine? Are you comfortable with where your are and how things are flowing? For Matthew and I, I admit that our life would fit into that description…BUT in the months to come every one of those descriptions are about to change for us and in a big way. Yes, we’re about to have baby #2 which is a huge change in itself, but that’s not what I’m even referring to. If you’re up for it, continue reading to see just what happens when you seek God’s will and tell Him “Lord, if you say go, we will go.”
A few months ago, Matthew was asked to consider interviewing for a change in station position for work. It would be a temporary position that would allow him to complete a 1-2 year stint in Washington, D.C. He would remain employed by his current company, but have the opportunity to work in a different office completing a different line of work. We immediately began praying for God to show us first whether or not he should even apply for the job. When He gave us His peace and affirmation to go forward, Matthew then agreed to an interview. Our prayers then focused on asking God to reveal His will and show us clearly whether He wanted us to go or stay.
One specific way I prayed was taken from one of Moses’ many intercessory prayers as he led the Israelites out of Egypt and toward the Promised Land. After Israel had sinned against God by forming and worshiping a golden calf, God was still going to be gracious enough to allow them into the Promised Land. However, He stated that He would NOT go with them, but instead would only send an angel before them (Exodus 33:1-3). Moses pleaded with the Lord “If your presence does not go with us, do not lead us up from here” Exodus 33:15. He knew that only God’s presence among His people could distinguish and set them apart from the rest of the world (Exodus 33:16). Moses didn’t want to go anywhere the Lord was not going to be. So that became a fervent, personal prayer of ours, “Lord, if you do not go up before us do not send us.”
Another way in which I prayed was taken from a song by Vinyard called “If you say go.” In those lyrics are the words, “If you say go, we will go. If you say wait, we will wait.” Great words to pray and seek after, but hard ones to sometimes truly live out. However, when you know that failure to follow and obey God will bring negative consequences and missed blessings, that difficult obedience becomes even more desirable because through it you know there will be not only blessings but a pleased Heavenly Father.
After a few weeks God’s answer came, “Go to Washington, D.C.” Matthew had been selected for the position. Even though we had been telling God “We are willing to go if You call us.”, we were still hit with a head spinning flood of emotions. Of course all of the fleshly doubts and second thoughts came rushing in like, “God, are you REALLY calling us to go there? Are you sure this is Your will?” Kind of humorous when you think about it since we had been praying for him to clearly show us His way and then He widely opens the door when Matthew received the position. But that’s our human flesh, always at war with the Spirit. Our flesh says staying right where you are is easier, more convenient, comfortable and familiar. But God never promised a life that would be easy, convenient and comfortable. You won’t find that anywhere in scripture. On the contrary, God sent the Holy Spirit as our helper in order to lead us to and through places and times in which we never would have gone or gotten through on our own. Just because a path is hard doesn’t mean it’s the wrong one. God’s ways are often harder than our own because His word says,
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.”
Humans tend to choose the easier, more desirable path. God chooses the one that will bring Him the most glory.
Matthew and I could choose to wrestle with the Spirit and create an entire list of why we should stay: family, friends, home, new baby, our church family, finances, etc. etc. The list of reasons to stay far outweighs the reasons to go…in our fleshly eyes anyway. But ultimately, if God says “go” we WILL and MUST go, all because when you truly love the Lord you will obey Him.
Now I’m not naive enough to think that moving to D.C. won’t be challenging and hard. Of course it will be. But I have the assurance of God’s promises that state
“Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
“Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
We don’t know the “Why” of why God is calling us to move hundreds of miles away from our families into a city that is anything but the “Bible Belt”. That’s something that He may not reveal to us until much later, if ever. At this point we don’t even know how all the details will even work out regarding housing, moving, finances, etc. But what we do know is that we are responsible for obeying the “what” in what He calls us to do, which in our case is moving to D.C. For God has called us to where we are (and where we’re going) for such a time as this (Esther 4:14).
To wrap up I want to go back to the song, “If you say go.” This song had always been a favorite of mine and like I said it was even part of our prayers when this journey began. But as I listened to it again after Matthew told me he received the job, it suddenly became MUCH more personal and struck my heart in a way it never has before. New words came into focus, ones that will now be in my prayers as this journey continues.
If You say step out on the water and they say it can’t be done
We will fix our eyes on You and we will come.
Your ways are higher than our ways
And the plans that you have laid are good and true
If You call us to the fire, You will not withdraw Your hand
We will gaze into the flames and look for You.
This new journey will definitely be a time of challenges and changes, but also a time of growth and maturity in my walk with God and Matthew. I’m excited to see how God works in this next chapter of our lives. I know He will not disappoint. He never does.